How Far We've Come

I'm just hurting right now. And I'm worried and preoccupied and I just keep trying to avoid my problems like usual, but I can't. It's just in my head and I can't shake it out. I forget for like an hour and then it comes back with a vengeance.

I'm worried because I can't pass my Canadian class. I can't organize my thoughts. They just.. they're everywhere. And I'm so worried about my brother, but he's not listening to me. He refuses to listen. He wants to do acid and shrooms and he just keeps searching for this bigger high everytime and it scares me. I just... I don't know what his limit is. And I don't know what to do about it.

It's just he's been talking to me lately. Like he respects my opinion. Like I kind of always wished he would. Like I'm this cool older sister. I always wanted him to look up to me. Not that I think he looks up to me exactly, but I don't wanna screw up the progress we've made. But if something happens to him, I know that I won't be able to stop blaming myself. I just wish there was someway I could protect him without making him hate me. I don't think I can take him hating me.

And then there's the friend who I never know if she's telling me the truth or bullshitting me. But at least she's getting a restraining order for part of the problem... So maybe that'll help. I don't know!

And there's the other person whos got me so terrified. I just don't want to lose her. But at the same time, it's like everytime she comes back, I just can't escape this feeling that she's gonna leave again. But the thing is I would rather have her around and think that she might ditch me then have her actually do it and lose her completely.

"Hello
Hello
Hello

Waking up at the start of the end of the world,
But it's feeling just like every other morning before,
Now I wonder what my life is going to mean if it's gone,
The cars are moving like a half a mile an hour
And I started staring at the passengers who're waving goodbye
Can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time?

I believe the world is burning to the ground
Oh well I guess we're gonna find out
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Well I believe it all is coming to an end
Oh well, I guess, we're gonna pretend,
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come

I think it turned ten o'clock but I don't really know
And I can't remember caring for an hour or so
Started crying and I couldn't stop myself
I started running but there's no where to run to
I sat down on the street took a look at myself
Said where you going man you know the world is headed for hell
Say your goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to

I believe the world is burning to the ground
Oh well I guess we're gonna find out
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come

Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
Oh well, I guess, we're gonna pretend,
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come

It's gone, gone, baby, it's all gone
There is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
It was cool cool, it was just all cool
Now it's over for me and it's over for you
Well it's gone, gone, baby, it's all gone
There is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
Well it was cool cool, it was just all cool
Now it's over for me and it's over for you

I believe the world is burning to the ground
Oh well I guess we're gonna find out
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
Oh well, I guess, we're gonna pretend,
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come"